Our Fun Weekend at South Jordan Days and More...

Wow, we had such a fun weekend! Friday, we kicked off our weekend by going to South Jordan Days with some of our friends! The kiddos had so much fun together! Mollie absolutely loved petting the pony and really had a great time on her pony ride!

Next, the kiddos went on a train ride! Mollie was in the back and had quite the bumpy ride! She was almost doing pop-a-wheelies, but managed to just love it! That girl has no fear of anything!

Molls and her cute friend Audrey on the Animal Train

To top off the night, we went on the Merry-go-round! It was Never ending, but the kids had a great time on it!

After the carnival, we took off to our ward softball tournament and kicked some major butt! It was so much fun! I got over my softball frustration and just tried to have fun and a good attitude! This led to 2 RBI's! Woo Hoo... Go me!!

Saturday morning we got up early and headed off to the South Jordan Days Parade! We met up with the Lundquists and had a great time with Mollie and little Gabers!

Tom got us a loot of candy, and we also grabbed some Menchie's coupons! We had fun, but Mollie wasn't quite sure about all the loud sirens! She was a trooper though, and we rewarded her with lots of candy! I am a good parent aren't I?

This last pic is incredible! This is my goal.. To be Mrs. South Jordan in 50 years! What a bombshell, right?!!

After the parade, we headed to more ward softball! We dominated our first game so we advanced to play right after that! We didn't have enough players or we would have dominated again, but ended up loosing! We had so much fun though, and it was a great afternoon spent out in the sun on the baseball field! Tom had some awesome catches, but I must admit my line drive I caught was pretty amazing! I didn't take any pictures, but it was such a blast!

We ended the night in Park City at Loco Lizard for my bro-in-laws Birthday Bash! It was lots of fun to be there to celebrate with my fam and good food! Molls had a great time with her cousin, Tessa! Those two are wild as can be together and I absolutely love it!

After all that playing you would think Mollie would be tuckered out, right? I don't think so!!

So, as you can tell we had a fabulous weekend filled with fun, friends and family! Can't beat that!

Softball Frustration...

Well, tonight was slightly frustrating! Tom and I played softball with our ward. Don't get me wrong, it was great being with so many awesome people and we had a good time even though we got smashed. The not so fun part was not being able to hit that dang ball.

I am a competitive person, mainly with myself. That can be a good thing, but a bad thing too. I was very frustrated with myself for not being able to hang with the rest of the team. I used to be able to play any sport and do fairly well at it, but that was not the case tonight. Ya, I could catch and throw the ball, but hitting the ball was out of the question. I felt weak, and did not feel like the athlete I have always been.

On the other hand, I guess I need to realize that I am no where near the athletic shape I used to be in when I was playing soccer everyday of my life, or running, or at that healthy weight I used to be when I actually had muscles!! Since starting my recovery from disordered eating a few months ago, this was the first real athletic event I have participated in. It was a big eye opener on where I am, but I also know that since March I have come so far. I still have a ways to go and tonight was a manifestation of that, but I know I am doing the things I need, and am taking the steps forward in the right direction.

So while tonight was very frustrating,(I ended up in tears after the game to Tom because I was so down on myself) it was good to see where I am at and where I want to be. I want to be that athletic girl I once was. I want to have the strength to play any and every sport and do pretty well at it! I don't want to feel weak, I want to feel strong and confident in all that I do. I can do this! I believe it is the frustrating things that we go through that make us strong!

So with that said, I will look at tonight as a step forward to greatness and to that Lindie I used to be!! Hope this makes sense! I needed to express myself in some way, and writing it in words always seems to help! Have a great night!

Striving to Run again and not be Weak!!

Gardening 101

I have found a new hobby! I have come to love gardening. I can owe this new obsession to my mother. She is the most incredible gardener I know. She is my master gardener, and I want to be like her when I grow up. Alongside my mom, my sister is phenomenal as well. I hope and aspire to have amazing looking yards like both of them one day. My yard is a work in progress, but it has been so much fun working so hard to make it look nice. I have learned so much about different flowers, and how to take care of a yard. It is so much fun, and gives me the mega endorphins I have been lacking due to not exercising while recovering from my disordered eating. I love it. I could be outside all day everyday working in my yard, but Mollie needs some attention too right? Yes. Between her and my gardening life is good. Here are some incredible pictures of my mom's fabulous yard! Enjoy!

My Gardening Mentor!

Beautiful Pots!

Oh, I love this Yard!

Mollie's New Favorite Playhouse!

The Gardener at Work!

Sunday Fun

Oh how I love Sunday's! They are the BEST, and just so relaxing and filled with family and fun! We started our Sunday off with baking delicious Peanut Butter Cupcakes with Chocolate Cream Cheese Frosting! Oh they were yummy! I will post the recipe soon!

We attended a wonderful "farewell" talk for my cute cousin James! He did an amazing job, and will be an incredible missionary! Good Luck Elder Hall! After his talk we joined family and friends at his house for some yummy homemade Cafe Rio Salads and lots of Goodies and Desserts! It was a good time!!

After we went to Tom's parents for some homemade pizza making on the BBQ! They were so good, and so much fun to make! I am thinking of having friends over to do them at my house! So fun! We played some family softball after dinner... I got stuck on the Oldies team! It was me, Malcolm, JJ and Amy against Tom, Katy, Abby and Taylor! Oh man did we smoke them though... Just kidding!

It was a fun day, and ended with Molls snoozing on the swing! She was tuckered out from our busy day, and with no nap I don't blame her!

Do you love Sunday's?

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”

Change can be a scary thing for a lot of people. For me, at this moment in my life, it is crucial! It was and still is a step that needs to continue to happen in order for me to move forward to a happier, healthier life!

For the past few months I have been on the road to recovering from disordered eating habits. Let me tell you, it has not been an easy thing to do. When I made the first steps to go to the doctor in March, it was the scariest thing I had ever done in my life. I didn't know what she was going to tell me, and I didn't know what the outcome of the visit would be. Well, it wasn't as bad as I would have thought, but I did land myself in the Hospital due to low potassium levels, a low heart rate and low blood pressure. Hearing those things was very scary for me. It was a huge wake up call, that what I was doing to my body (basically starving it) was wrong and something needed to change, and quick! It was a huge turning point in my life.

How could I have gotten so entangled in my eating disorder? I mean, I am a mother, a wife, a sister, a friend, and have so many things blessing my life. How could I be so selfish to my darling daughter? From that moment on I decided it was time to change!

I was in the Hospital for a day and a half to get my levels back to normal, and get my body back functioning properly. I was very dehydrated, so I was pumped full of fluids as well. While in the Hospital, I had a lot of time to myself to think. My mom had my sweet Mollie which was so kind of her, but made me feel very selfish. Even though I felt like I was failing at being a mom, I knew I was taking the right steps in order to be the best mom I can be for my darling little girl. By the end of my hospital stay I was feeling so much better. I already had so much more energy and zest for life.

Before I left the Hospital I was hooked up with an amazing Nutritionist, Therapist and Dr. We scheduled follow-up appointments with all of them so my road to recovery could continue. I started out seeing all of them once a week. It has been a huge blessing to be able to have them as my support team, as well as my incredible Husband, Mom, Dad, sisters, extended family and friends. I have the greatest family in the whole world. I could not do this without them and all of their love and support.

I am not going to lie, this has been one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. I have had good days, bad days and great days! But it has been quite the roller coaster of emotions. I was so far into this terrible disorder, that it has taken patience and time to get me to where I am today.

I still have a long way to go, but have so much determination and faith, that I know I will overcome this trial. Making these changes will change my life for the better in so many ways. I want to be the Lindie I love to be. I want to run again, play soccer and tennis, and be that active person I have always been. I want to be a better mom and role model for Mollie. I want to be a better wife, daughter, sister and friend!

Some key things I have learned the past few months are...

For the majority of my life I played competitive soccer. I thought that is what defined me as a person.. I have learned that there is so much more to me than being a great soccer player. I am a mother (best job in the world)... I am a wife to a wonderful husband who loves me for who I am inside and not my skinny self I am on the outside right now... I am a daughter to two incredible parents whom I look up in so many ways and love so so much... I am a sister to two beautiful women that I admire so much... I am a friend... I am a good cook... I am good at doing flowers for weddings and arrangements... I am an athlete... I am so much more than just a soccer player, and have so many other talents I have been blessed with.

I have learned and am putting into practice, that food is fuel. Without it, I am not the Lindie I Love to be. Food is not the enemy it is essential to my well being and man it tastes good. I deprived myself of so many things, that I had to relearn what things I like and don't like, and not classifying foods as "good" and "bad"... Moderation in all things is the key!

I have learned so many things about myself during the past few months that I could go on and on about it, but the biggest thing I have learned is that I need to love myself as much as I love my sweet little girl. I need to treat myself as good as I treat her. I need to take care of myself so I can continue to take care of Mollie. Like I said, I have a long way to go to be my healthy self, but I feel like I have grown and changed for the good in so many ways.

With that said, as much as I want to erase this whole disordered eating phase and start from the beginning again, I can't. But, I can continue to make the correct changes so that in the end I will be happier, stronger, and the Lindie I love and am striving to be.

To all of my family, Thank you so much for all your love and support these past few months. I know it has taken a lot of patience on your part, and I want you to know how much I appreciate each and every one of you and all of your prayers. I couldn't do this with out you.

Healthy, Strong and Confident Lindie! This is my goal, and I know I will get back there again!

Sunday Fun at Grammies House!

We love Sundays! We trade off every week going to Grandma Amy's and Grammie Stacy's house! We are so lucky to have both of our families so close! Mollie loves to go to both, but especially loves playing with her cousins at Grammie Stacy's house! It is a riot with all 3 kiddos and lots of excitement, energy, and never a dull moment!

Popsicles at Grammie's

Ready for the Wagon Ride, Please!

Olls and Molls Wagon Adventure!

Ended the night right with delicious PB and Vanilla Ice Cream with Chocolate Cookies! Yum!

My Little Fish!

We had a great trip to St. George for the Memorial Day Weekend. The weather was wonderful! It was warm, and we got away from the chilly, rainy weather in Salt Lake! We had lots of fun swimming at the pool, roller-blading, playing sand volleyball, shopping, and relaxing in the sun! Mollie absolutely loved the pool and was a little fish! She couldn't get enough once she got used to all that chlorine! Can't wait to go back! Here are some pics from the pool!

Playing with Aunt Abby in the Pool!

Floating all by herself! What a big girl!

Aunt Mary and Grandma Amy Soaking up the Sun!

Daddy and Mollie Jo Time!

Mom made her relax and rehydrate with a bottle full of Gatorade!